So close yet so far

Why do I let you invade my dreams
Knowing that it doesn't bother you when my heart screams
Why do I let my thoughts carry me away
Even when aware that you are nothing but a memory far far away.

I miss the way your eyes looked at me,
I miss the way your hand held on to me,
I was a fool to think that you would forever be with me
I am still a fool drowning in this endless sea.

God I beg you to wipe my memory clean
I would love to see life once again sheen
Help me with a breath of air
Free me from these painful nightmares

If only you weren't someone else's

I wish I could tell you why I grieve
I wish I could rest by your sleeve
I would have told you how I feel
If only you weren't someone else's

I want to tell you that I am in pain
I need to tell you that I am going insane
All my yearning would not have been in vain
If only you wern't someone else's

I miss your silly conversations
I miss your sweet affection
I would have done everything to have them back
If only you wern't someone else's

You might not see me speak all this
You might not understand why all this
If there is something you must know, it is this
I never wanted you to be someone else's

Expressions

A message to someone who is planning to let go.
"Very lucid, very subtle.
Is the trouble worth the mettle?

Inspiration you may be
but it is Exasperation you shall feel
if your heart desires for something
while your words express nothing.

Small maybe Cupid's arrows
but ignore them not for painful they can be

Forget not that little things set your soul free.

Flowing tears and rolling years may relieve you of the tears you today see
But there will always be moments which will remind you of lost glee.

Take not my words as a musing,
take them as a warning,
from as someone who has been there
it is hard to explain why it is difficult to find love anywhere.

Make the move even if it doesn't really fit in your groove
for love once lost is never found again."

By my side

I wake up in the morning only to see your face
Hold me in your arms with your infinite grace
Promise me that you will not leave my side
For only then can my future can be a joyous ride

There were times when I hurt your heart
There were times when my actions were not so smart
Forgive me for my times of innocence
Pardon me for any brash arrogance.

I stand today and hold your hand
Confident that only this way I can conquer this land
Everyday I thank the creater of these skies
For pairing us and acting wise

You have my word my love that
that I shall stay with you in moments happy and worse
I beg you of the same
For my lips cannot think of any other name

Little bit of Sunshine

How do I express my feelings to you
How do I let me emotions pass through
My heart flutters everytime I meet you
My mind stutters as if this is something totally new.

I was ready to challenge anyone who desired to be your pair
Even if he was the devil in his lair.
It is difficult to say why I care
I am guessing it is love that is in the air.

I couldn't take it when your friend said he was here to stay
My heart coudn't bear it when you let him have his way
My joy knew no bounds when you told me he was gay
I would have hugged him if he wasn't that way.

Everytime I meet you I can't help but stare
Jealous of even the breeze that plays with your hair
All I can see is you and you alone
As if everything else has been turned to stone

I wish it hadn't rained

The rain reminds me of you
Bringing back memories of everything we knew
I just can't remember how time flew
for these days there seems to be nothing new.

I can't seem to fill the void you created
Even happiness looks overrated
What wouldn't I give for a cure for this pain.
What wouldn't I give to start all over again.

The silence between us contained complete conversations.
The distance between us was filled with frustration.
Today they remind me of our fragmentation
Pushing me to dare another tense confrontation.

Where did we lose it all,
How did we get here.

I used to take the subway just to be with you
Quoting reasons that my car tire blew
Today I take it just to be among the crowd.
Alas! the silence is still too loud.

Where did I lose it all.
How did I get here.


You were once the reason for my inspiration

today,you are nothing more but the reason for my exasperation.

Your affection today

Is nothing more than my hallucination.

Where did I lose it all.

How did I get here.