So close yet so far

Why do I let you invade my dreams
Knowing that it doesn't bother you when my heart screams
Why do I let my thoughts carry me away
Even when aware that you are nothing but a memory far far away.

I miss the way your eyes looked at me,
I miss the way your hand held on to me,
I was a fool to think that you would forever be with me
I am still a fool drowning in this endless sea.

God I beg you to wipe my memory clean
I would love to see life once again sheen
Help me with a breath of air
Free me from these painful nightmares

If only you weren't someone else's

I wish I could tell you why I grieve
I wish I could rest by your sleeve
I would have told you how I feel
If only you weren't someone else's

I want to tell you that I am in pain
I need to tell you that I am going insane
All my yearning would not have been in vain
If only you wern't someone else's

I miss your silly conversations
I miss your sweet affection
I would have done everything to have them back
If only you wern't someone else's

You might not see me speak all this
You might not understand why all this
If there is something you must know, it is this
I never wanted you to be someone else's